What the fuck is this?

I never dreamt that I will ever write again on this topic, but the fucking life is beautiful.

Bored. The pinnacle of boredom. That’s exactly where I am placed right now. It is not that I am not uninterested or anything like that, but simply bored.

I love my job, it is teaching me a lot, but, I am not in a full mood to learn that much. I know, this will make me slower to catch the boat in my career, but what to do?

I do sound like I need a vacation, but, not in a position to take that. I want to do something drastic to change the course of this life, but, not in a position to do.

That’s exactly what I meant, Catch 22 situation. Time is the answer…

I will wait and see. No energy this time, to take the usual move, of attacking the time and racing past that, my stand by battery is also down. Why? I have to find out. Let me do the searching!!!

Anisuthide Again??

This time I am trying to write this song in Tamil. I will try as much possible to keep the phonetic sharpness and meaning to the same level of the Kannada one! Total time taken: 1 Hour :)

Kannada Lyrics: Italics
Tamil Lyrics: Bold

Here I go:

Anisuthide yaako indu
Neeneyne nannavalindu
Maayadaa lokadinda
Nanagaage bandavalindu
Aahaa yentha madhura yaathane
Kollu hudugi omme nanna, haage summane

Thondriyathey yeno indru
Neethaaney yennavaLendru
Devadai ulagilirundu
Yenakkaga vanthavaLendru
Naane yennai marakkum vali idhu
Kollu penney orumurai yennai, yennai Seradi

Suriyuva soneyu sooside ninnade parimala
Innyara kanasulu neenu hodare talamala
Poorna chandira rajaa haakida
Ninnaya mogavanu kanda kshanaa…
Naa khaidi neeney seremane
Tabbi nanna appiko omme…. haage summane

mazhiyadu vanthathum vanthathu tharaiyinil un manam
Veryaarum kanavil nee sendral thavikkuthu yen manam
pournami chandiran olindhu kondatha
unazaghu mogaththai kanda udan
naan khaidi nee yen siraiyadi
Thulli yennai thazhuvikkol penney, yennai Seradi

Tutigala hoovali aadada maathina sihiyide
Manasina putadali kevala ninnade sahiyide
Haneyali bareyada ninna hesara
Hrudayadi naane korediruve
Ninagunte idara kalpane
Nanna hesara kooge omme… haage summane

un malarennum uthattinil ullathu yendhan uyiradi
en manamendra puthagaththil iruppathellam undhan peyaradi
un udhayaththil illada unthan peyarai
yen idhayaththil naaney sethukkivittaen
unakkunda ithupol karpanai
yen perai padadi penney, yennai Seradi

Yipeee!! I did it!!

Learning?

For the last few days, actually weeks, my learning curve is some what directly proportional to a exponential curve!

I have been learning a lot, from time management, to work and the panache involved in some project management. Should I say I am almost learning every hour?? With all these learning, I am not sure how much could stay in. Now, I am afraid. I was happy that I am learning.

Project management is a ocean in itself! That must be an understatement. I don’t know, how big that is, but I could not see the land in the horizon. Damn! Still there is lots to learn! My head is spinning!

So there are 2 questions that I wanted to ask myself, but I am sure that I don’t have the answer:

1. Am I learning at the right pace or am I slow? There is a lot to learn!!
2. Am I going to keep most of my learning if I go at this speed?

Those two statements sound contradicting! Oxymoron!! Just like this world and me as usual in the middle blinking!!

Un-Categorized feeling!!!

Sometime, I get this strange and uncategorized feeling. This is kind of mixed, if I say in a kitchen recipe style:

1 portion of Jealousy
1 portion of Realization
1/2 cup of learning
1/2 cup of understanding
2 Liters of thinking
1 scoop of self confidence
1 scoop of Imagination

When I see some people doing some nice job, I get the 1 portion of Jealousy, and soon gets mixed with 1 portion of Realization. What I get from this is 1/2 cup of learning, and 1/2 cup of understanding. After soaking all these in 2 Liters of thinking, for few minutes, and adding 1 scoop of self confidence and 1 scoop of Imagination, and blending this on the brain-blender for few more minutes, I get another mixture.

This mixture on fermentation, produces lots of learning and brings me back to the present day! Once the fermentation is finished the mixture's anxiety subsidizes, Oozing out a even clear understanding leading to Acceptance of the way the world and life works!!

Is this recipe is what people call "Mental Maturity Model"??

Awesome song!!!

After a long time I saw “Chak De India” again today! This is not a pirated copy. I proudly own the original DVD (a set of 2 dvds), especially for the original soundtrack and audio effects. Did I mention earlier that I bought a new Home Theater (5.1)??

First time when I saw the movie or this song I accept that I could not feel the actual context and the deep meaning in this song. This time I was just in-to the movie, just allowing myself to get carried away with the current of the movie’s flow. This was a nice experience. The song with the meaning and the perception it was made is as below:

Perception: A true citizen towards his country… (Kabir Khan towards India, in this case)

Mood: Patriotic/Love/Respect?? (Tere Mera Naata Koi Dooja Na Jaana!!!)

Song and Meaning:

Teeja Tera Rang Tha Main Tho
Jiya Tere Dhang Se Main Tho
Tu Hi Tha Maula, Tu Hi Aan
Maula Mere Lele Meri Jaan

I was a part of  your colour
I had lived in your liking
You are my Lord, you are my pride
My lord, I surrender my life to you, take it!

Now I am thinking, am I really the worthy citizen?? Bloody NRI (Non Reliable/Returning Indian)